I’ve noticed recently that I haven’t been my most positive self (not in front of my students though, of course). Daily life, stress, frustrations, and annoyances have gotten the better of me, I’m embarrassed to admit. My usual cheerful smile has been on vacation for quite a while…
Annoyances with my best friend who seems to call everyday with something new to complain about…you just bought a house, you have a wonderful boyfriend, a great job…sheesh what else could you ask for?
The stress of grading a never ending stack of papers, planning creative and thought provoking lessons to keep my students engaged through out the testing season, hunting down texts from multiple libraries near my home and school in order to replace the computers we will be without for the duration of march (thanks PARCC!).
Frustrations with Comcast….seriously guys, a week and a half to fix my internet…don’t you know I’m a teacher?!?! With my family who act as if my day is a piece of cake…clearly teachers just hang out and watch movies all day…I shouldn’t be tired. With the highway…never ending traffic that always seems to appear the days I need to arrive early anywhere…seriously, how does the highway just know?!
All of these thoughts and more have recently taken homage in my mind…until Friday afternoon following our girls on the run practice. When chatting with one of my girls about her weekend plans as dad was running late, I discovered her family didn’t have any power. No electricity. For several weeks. Here I am complaining about the most superficial of problems (traffic and no internet…seriously?! How shallow am I?!) when my student was struggling to just have the basics.
What do you say at that moment? All I could do was give her a big hug and offer her a few books from my classroom to read while it was light out…which she graciously declined…too dark to read she confided in me.
This amazing 9 year old had been showing up to school for weeks with a giant smile on her face and a positive attitude…never once letting on that something was happening at home…and I’m sitting her complaining because I don’t have internet?! Whoa…
I like to think I’ve never been a selfish or superficial human being…but as of late, I’ve come to realize my mindset has been too busy focusing on the negative, the unimportant, a glass half empty.
After hearing of my runner’s struggles and seeing the positive attitude she can put forth even though times may be hard, makes me realize that what I have to complain about just isn’t that important…or worth the stress, frustrations, and annoyances it beings to my life. So with that, I’m choosing to live my life as a glass half full kinda girl…starting today.